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Temporary Happiness.
Posted on Friday, 16 June 2017 @ 16:40 with 0 comment(s)

It's genuinely unbelievable how fast time flies! In just a blink of an eye, we have almost completed our one month of fasting & is equals to my 3rd week of being an Aspi student. I have to admit that everything went by suppppeeer fastttt that I can still recall the day when I registered. It's crazy how hectic & hilarious my life has been in these few weeks of schooling, overloaded with classes & assignments, oh and also, quizzes (phew). There's nothing much to share about my schedule except that it has been so packed and tiresome that I can barely find time to rest and of course, too busy to get myself involved in unnecessary things. Despite that, I found something that ignited my self-doubt and this is affecting my self-confidence & also self-esteem. The struggle is real bro.

I believe we all have our own flaws and insecurities, right? I have mine too. &&& its super annoying when I worry too much about my timidity until i overlook the strengths & beauty inside me. I constantly critic and give bad comments about myself especially regarding my physical & mental attributes. Being here, I am surrounded with outstanding, alluring, captivating & exquisite smart-asses which contribute to my already feeling-dumb-and-ugly feels. It is not healthy, I know. But somehow I could not control my insecurities & i feel so bad for not being able to feel grateful with what I have. But yknow what's amazing? I stumbled upon this amazing quote when I was on instagram and it hits me real hard.

If akhirah is yr competition, happiness & success of both dunya&akhirah is the prize. But what will you get if the dunya is yr competition? Temporary happiness.

Ouch. That's true.

So I have been thinking about the trials that I am facing with & to be very very frank, it is too exaggerated to classify it as a problem. It's actually not. I realize that I am the one who overemphasized it when it could actually be solved without putting on too much effort on it & even without anyone's helping hand. I should be the one who should eradicate all of the temptations and distractions and get back on the right track , in order for my life to change. The only thing keeping me going right now is knowing that Allah has it all planned out && this is all temporary. It's normal to feel insecure, but dont let it overwhelms you. 

minggu mesra pelajar 17/18.
Posted on Friday, 26 May 2017 @ 07:39 with 1 comment(s)

Hey there lovelies, assalamu'alaikum!
So i have gone through 3 days as an Aspi student, & i am beyond grateful for everything alhamdulillah. In the minggu mesra pelajar, we the new students were introduced to everything regarding the challenges, obstacles & convenience as an aspi student. Not to forget, we were given the opportunity to know each other well & honestly speaking, i can't help feeling insecure & nervous. These guys & girls are absolutely outstanding, superb & tremendous! We're going to start our academic session next week, oh my god its very nerve-wrecking to start up a new life because yknow, although i am the alumni of mrsm, the life that im going to face as an asasi student at ukm, is going to be divergent to what i've been through before as a boarding school student back in mrsm.

I always have self-doubt if im going to excel in this foundation program. I hate self-doubts. You know when they say we are our own biggest critics, they are hella true.

But then, I believe, every single thing that im encountering with at the moment has all been planned by Allah, the Almighty. & who could ever doubt Him, the best of all planners. Being in a new place, meeting new people, gaining new knowledge, makes me realize how small i actually am as a human being. There's not even a small room provided for us to be arrogant nor presumptuous & assume that we are better than every single creature living in this globe. I am grateful to be out of my comfort zone. Before this, i might be a prodigy who only memorizes everything written on the textbook, be a bookworm & excel in the examination but here in aspi, there will 8 subjects that affects our cgpa & what amazes me more is the aspi students are prepared mentally & physically on how to survive as an excellent student. Not only we need to do well in our chemistry, biology, physics, statistics & logical reasoning examination, but we will also have the jati diri, research skills & apresisasi bahasa dan kesusasteraan which requires you to be active & get involved with all of the activities instead of simply acquiring great marks in exam. There's going to be a lot of activities & events held, like social experiments, khidmat masyarakat, make short videos, be active &approachable by the peers & lecturers, conducting a research & many more! & i am very excited to start everything soon.

Allah gave you a beautiful life. Dont waste it being sad over something that will pass in time. He's always got something planned.

I know & i am aware that this one year of asasi pintar is going to be hard & strenuous but i believe an exciting journey awaits us ahead, insya-Allah. I hope aspi batch of 2017/2018 is going to be outstanding & unique. Success is a collective effort, we, as a batch need to be selfless & ready to help each other out in times of needs. Anyway, happy fasting to all muslims!! Lets take this opportunity to be closer to the Almighty, to leave out sins & be a better khalifah in this world. :)

annyeong ;
Alia. 18, future cardiologist.

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