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Posted on Thursday, 5 October 2017 @ 05:06 with 0 comment(s)

I always find myself questioning the things I do, even if I was the one who opted to do it from the beginning. I frequently ask myself whether I’m doing the right thing. Whether there’s any good in the things I choose to put myself in. The school I go to, the activities I join, the events I attend, the friends I choose to keep. Are my decisions going to benefit my future or are they just a waste of time? I wonder if I’m really doing anything right these days. You see, I have always had this fear in me. This fear I can’t specifically explain. I often am afraid if I make the wrong choices, especially when I have to make big important life decisions. What if my plans don’t work out? Who will I be in 10 years? Will I ever really figure it out?

Recently, banyak sangat benda yang berlaku. Literally a lot, & I really wish I could write everything here but hm let's not talk about it. I've been thinking about the future, a lot. & how I miss how things used to be like. I miss my old school, my old friends, the old me. Being here makes me realize how unpredictable this life could be. How we could change in just a few months.But, despite all that, I learned how to be independent, how to stand on my own feet, & how to fight those emotions. It is true that in every trials and tribulations that we went through, Allah is actually planning something better for us ahead. And in that journey, without realizing it, we were actually preparing ourselves to be stronger and better than who we were yesterday. I admit that I have changed A LOT but somehow I also learned that as we grow up, and as we encounter new experiences, we gain more knowledge & tips about life, and we know that it is essential to change in order to adapt with this ambiguous yet beautiful life. :)

For those who are also struggling, have faith in Him. You are exactly where Allah wants you to be right now. Every experience is a part of His divine plan. Allah has purpose for your pain, a reason for your struggle and a reward for your faithfulness. Never give up. Remember in surah al-Baqarah verse 286; Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear. If you're feeling down or you are having self-doubt, note this; don't compare your life to others. There is no comparison between the sun and the moon. They shine when it's their time. We are all beautiful and unique in our own way. Be patient, when life gives you lemon, make lemonade out of it alright dear! Chin up and keep shining because no one could do it better for you. Another beautiful word of Allah; perhaps you hate a thing but it is good for you and vice versa. [2:216].

Be bold, be grateful, be you.
Good luck! <3

Temporary Happiness.
Posted on Friday, 16 June 2017 @ 16:40 with 0 comment(s)

It's genuinely unbelievable how fast time flies! In just a blink of an eye, we have almost completed our one month of fasting & is equals to my 3rd week of being an Aspi student. I have to admit that everything went by suppppeeer fastttt that I can still recall the day when I registered. It's crazy how hectic & hilarious my life has been in these few weeks of schooling, overloaded with classes & assignments, oh and also, quizzes (phew). There's nothing much to share about my schedule except that it has been so packed and tiresome that I can barely find time to rest and of course, too busy to get myself involved in unnecessary things. Despite that, I found something that ignited my self-doubt and this is affecting my self-confidence & also self-esteem. The struggle is real bro.

I believe we all have our own flaws and insecurities, right? I have mine too. &&& its super annoying when I worry too much about my timidity until i overlook the strengths & beauty inside me. I constantly critic and give bad comments about myself especially regarding my physical & mental attributes. Being here, I am surrounded with outstanding, alluring, captivating & exquisite smart-asses which contribute to my already feeling-dumb-and-ugly feels. It is not healthy, I know. But somehow I could not control my insecurities & i feel so bad for not being able to feel grateful with what I have. But yknow what's amazing? I stumbled upon this amazing quote when I was on instagram and it hits me real hard.

If akhirah is yr competition, happiness & success of both dunya&akhirah is the prize. But what will you get if the dunya is yr competition? Temporary happiness.

Ouch. That's true.

So I have been thinking about the trials that I am facing with & to be very very frank, it is too exaggerated to classify it as a problem. It's actually not. I realize that I am the one who overemphasized it when it could actually be solved without putting on too much effort on it & even without anyone's helping hand. I should be the one who should eradicate all of the temptations and distractions and get back on the right track , in order for my life to change. The only thing keeping me going right now is knowing that Allah has it all planned out && this is all temporary. It's normal to feel insecure, but dont let it overwhelms you. 

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