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Posted on Saturday, 28 October 2017 @ 05:31 with 0 comment(s)

Hi beautiful creatures!
I am currently having my final examination but we are having a short-2-days-break before taking our last paper, which is Physcis on this upcoming Monday && since I have my last paper syndrome overwhelming me at this particular moment, I guess it doesn't hurt to blog a lil' bit since I have not updated anything for quite a long time.

I have been thinking a lot lately, && how much I have changed in less than a year. It's crazy how much a year could do. After pondering upon a lot of  things that has happened in my life, considering the good && bad incidents that I have encountered with. I came to realize that up until this moment, I have been focusing too much on the negative stuff, neglecting the pleasant & delightful taste that life had offered (which is one of the most obvious reasons why I feel like I am not living my life to the fullest). I am so afraid that I am going to waste so much of my life being sad when I should be living. And not just living, but living vibrantly and loudly. I want to read more, travel more, learn more and talk to more people without feeling held back by the confines of my body. I no longer want to feel like I am drowning, sinking, falling or being swallowed up whole by something monstrous. I want to feel alive, lovely and brilliant, even for a moment.

The first step of living my life without any regret is to cherish every single second spent with the loved ones. I shall reduce the amount of time that I spend on social media, because besides getting the opportunity to stalk my crush daily and being updated with the newest fashion and skincare, it brings very little benefit to myself. I believe I need to dedicate more time on reading & writing or travelling && cut off all those negative thoughts of not being able to be good enough to everyone (yknow, we could never please the humans because admit it, humans are insatiable). I can't wait to go back home & meet my family & tok & my adorable kucing yang gemoks gila tu dahlah pemalas aish & to be able to treat my final-exam-pimples :'''') & inshaAllah, I rly hope that next sem will be so much better than the first one. May Allah ease everything amiiin.

Stay away from people who make you feel like you’re not good enough, because you are worth so much more.

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Posted on Thursday, 5 October 2017 @ 05:06 with 0 comment(s)

I always find myself questioning the things I do, even if I was the one who opted to do it from the beginning. I frequently ask myself whether I’m doing the right thing. Whether there’s any good in the things I choose to put myself in. The school I go to, the activities I join, the events I attend, the friends I choose to keep. Are my decisions going to benefit my future or are they just a waste of time? I wonder if I’m really doing anything right these days. You see, I have always had this fear in me. This fear I can’t specifically explain. I often am afraid if I make the wrong choices, especially when I have to make big important life decisions. What if my plans don’t work out? Who will I be in 10 years? Will I ever really figure it out?

Recently, banyak sangat benda yang berlaku. Literally a lot, & I really wish I could write everything here but hm let's not talk about it. I've been thinking about the future, a lot. & how I miss how things used to be like. I miss my old school, my old friends, the old me. Being here makes me realize how unpredictable this life could be. How we could change in just a few months.But, despite all that, I learned how to be independent, how to stand on my own feet, & how to fight those emotions. It is true that in every trials and tribulations that we went through, Allah is actually planning something better for us ahead. And in that journey, without realizing it, we were actually preparing ourselves to be stronger and better than who we were yesterday. I admit that I have changed A LOT but somehow I also learned that as we grow up, and as we encounter new experiences, we gain more knowledge & tips about life, and we know that it is essential to change in order to adapt with this ambiguous yet beautiful life. :)

For those who are also struggling, have faith in Him. You are exactly where Allah wants you to be right now. Every experience is a part of His divine plan. Allah has purpose for your pain, a reason for your struggle and a reward for your faithfulness. Never give up. Remember in surah al-Baqarah verse 286; Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear. If you're feeling down or you are having self-doubt, note this; don't compare your life to others. There is no comparison between the sun and the moon. They shine when it's their time. We are all beautiful and unique in our own way. Be patient, when life gives you lemon, make lemonade out of it alright dear! Chin up and keep shining because no one could do it better for you. Another beautiful word of Allah; perhaps you hate a thing but it is good for you and vice versa. [2:216].

Be bold, be grateful, be you.
Good luck! <3

annyeong ;
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